Pumps

So I had interview with Aldo Shoes today! And it seems they have been doing a lot of hiring and firing! MORE ROOM FOR ME! The interview went really good I think?! My interviewer was older than me but I felt like I was over powering him! Lol. Like when we talked I felt I was interviewing him and he was some kid from high school, he was so soft spoken but in a really sweet way! He asked a lot of good questions. Questions I hadn't thought bout in awhile a biggy was where do you see yourself in 5yrs? Ever since sometime last year I haven't thought of it which is crazy because I'm so passionate bout fashion yet not being in fashion, in retail has cause me to fade a little... I want to be that bigger better Champayne but sometime I feel like I'm not motivated enough. Like why do this or change that? I trying to find that reason that drive I once had...I'm trying...
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I'm Having An Affiar

Ya'll I'm having an affair with a beautiful and magical creature! He is truly one of God's gift to the world! He is amazing and smooth! The only one that puts a smile and glow on my face. I love him, I need him, I probably couldn't live without him now that I'm thinking about! Lol. Last night I snuck and saw him, we tongue each other down it seemed like for hours! We made a mind blowing performs!
Now I know your asking me how can I do this! Am I crazy I have a husband! But I can stop, I'm addicted! How?, you ask...
Because my new love, my drug and my affair is with Alud's PENIS!
Pinky promise you won't tell Alud!

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Curve

Hi ya'll I know I haven't wrote much, but this is my first msgs from my BB Curve! I can write a lot more on my phone now, meaning I don't have to wait till I come home to write my thoughts, which I probably forget! Lol.

Anyway see you often, see you soon!
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IDK

i'm so damn lost you...you know the type of lost where don't recognize nothing around you including yourself? and its dark...so,so dark here. whatever this place is it host is loneliness himself.

I lost my job,my drive and passion...i lost my job the same week me and my wifey had our first fight and the same week i got another eviction notice.

and the sad part about this i saw it all coming...to the detail and yet i'm still very much confused. my life has turned in to a tragic accident that you watch almost in slow motion on the side of the road. how did i get so deep and lost in this place?

i don't know ya'll this is a tuff one....

you know i haven't cried yet? weird i know but not one tear...i almost wish i would cry to let it all wash away...instead its the extreme weight that is sitting on my heart...no deeper than that my soul.

i don't know...that is all i keep telling myself , i don't know *DEEP SIGH*


oh my blackberry curve is here...a 250.00 phone with a 20.00 package X 2, b/c Alud got one two...no job, eviction notice and 540.00 phones...wow

I Think I Can...I Think I Can, CHOO CHOO!

so i'm watching We "The Secret Lives Of Women" and the topic is Child Bride...it got me think about my life. i mean i got married at 18yrs old...but wasn't i a child bride? I had graduated high school only 14 days before i got married, but had lived on my own off and on for about a year mostly with Alud. i feel myself shutting down sometimes because i'm trying to grow up to be as mature as a mid 20 to 30 yr old. i'm isolating myself from my family and even some of my friends. alot of people in my inner circle don't know what is going on...two eviction notices, pass due bills, my car reposed, my credit is shoot, i am disgusted with my job....and the list goes on. i just keep telling myself "You have to do this Champayne! You have to do this you can't go home" "You did this to yourself so deal with it!" "I got to fix it!!! I got fix it MYSELF!"....if you notice there is no prayer to God or my savior Jesus. why I don't know I haven't found the reason yet. I was raised on prayer and finding the answers in God, yet i feel like i MUST do this myself. i must prove to Alud, my family, friends,myself...hell God that i can do this. i can live on my own, i can make my marriage work, i can go start then finish college...I CAN YA'LL! i can...my life will be better...a least that is what i keep telling myself...
so those of you that wonder what the hell is wrong with that girl?!?! I ask you to be just be patient with me... i can do this...

this what your head looks like when you get caught in ga rain....and for ya'll don't know what ga rain is...its the rain that pours down on you on one side of the street and the sunny and dry on the other!!! so i'm walking along in a tank and shorts with flip flops, and it strats raining when i'm more than half way to my destanation, so i go back home and it stops and gets hot again. my clothes are already drying and of course my hair, which by the way is natural and curls and gets frizzy when i snooze to hard, starts drying in to this part curl, part fro, part straight hair do. and guess what ya'll i had to walk ALL the way home looking like this (pic above). i'm leaving this state as soon as possible. UGH!

DESIGNER HAT

ok lately i have been truely frustraed....more sadden by my love, my soul, and passion FASHION. where are we going with it people!!! i don't know if anyone of remember the 90's fashion trends, but it was all about being hobo and not caring. it was more hippy but more dark, plain and gloomy somewhat...and as a designer i loved when that era left because it almost "DEGLAMOURIZED" women with its baggy pants and oversized shirts. i am a women with curves and a designer that loves color. so when i see the trend of today go back to making women look frumpy it truely saddens me. i look at some people in the lime light and i don't understand what their outfit is going. like one part is soft with pastel colors then its two sizes to big with hard accesories. its all over the place...like this blog is turn out?...well thanks for letting me vent.

Present...

lately i don't know how i feel...i'm not happy i'm not sad. i know weird right? but today? today i feel sick and moody. i eat leftover tacos...just another sick day to remain me to stop eating meat. but that chicken!!! that chicken gets me every time...sad i know. i'm really thinking about going home b/c i'm starting to feel chunks. not good. maybe i can sweet talk s.a. to let me off early...