IDK

i'm so damn lost you...you know the type of lost where don't recognize nothing around you including yourself? and its dark...so,so dark here. whatever this place is it host is loneliness himself.

I lost my job,my drive and passion...i lost my job the same week me and my wifey had our first fight and the same week i got another eviction notice.

and the sad part about this i saw it all coming...to the detail and yet i'm still very much confused. my life has turned in to a tragic accident that you watch almost in slow motion on the side of the road. how did i get so deep and lost in this place?

i don't know ya'll this is a tuff one....

you know i haven't cried yet? weird i know but not one tear...i almost wish i would cry to let it all wash away...instead its the extreme weight that is sitting on my heart...no deeper than that my soul.

i don't know...that is all i keep telling myself , i don't know *DEEP SIGH*


oh my blackberry curve is here...a 250.00 phone with a 20.00 package X 2, b/c Alud got one two...no job, eviction notice and 540.00 phones...wow