So shit has gone down...
And shit is changing....
I am in disbelief right now. Dec.2 2008 I lost my best friend...I lost my heart...my soul
and everyday since I've felt like of been losing my mind...
I cry just thinking of all the shit I have to go through by myself....this shit isn't fair, I did everything right, by the book and It still wa s fallen apart. These was suppose to be it, I was suppose to be set for life. But I am worst then before now.
How didn't I see this, I was so blind...BLINDED BY LOVE. The one thing I told myself I wouldn't allow.
Looking at him makes my skin crawl, yet in the same moment all I want him to do is love..."Love me,PLEASE just love me!" But even if he said he did I know he would be lying, because he never started, I believe.
So know I have to do the one thing I never wanted to do...be alone. that all I can think about is be all alone while his somewhere with someone else to love him.
We made an agreement to separate, not divorce he repeats over and over, yeah right. But for 2yrs we "DO US". Two years to separate, to learn how to live without each other, to fade way....
One day we will pass each other on the street and not even look each other way...
p a y n eH.
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